Well am finally back after a long incognito.

Well am finally going somewhere IIT or NIT or maybe some good government college.
IIT made it into the EML. Now lets see where it leads me ; if not NIT is sure. Whatever,
now as the results trickle in I see the unbalance in equations with the quota provided by the best brains in the government. I see so many scoring less than half of my score but either there preparatory is sure or good NIT is sure... while many score 50 60 marks more but have to wait for 2nd 3rd counseling.

Whatever i am dissatisfied with the election results. I cant bear Sonia who still cant speak Hindi properly but still is the shadow ruler of India. But this is why India sucks. Dont get me wrong I was big patriot till some months ago. But now it has all changed. I maybe still love India. But I hate it for all the caste reservation and the dirty religion politics etc which sometimes wants to make me vomit. You can say even after all the faults we must love it after all its our own country. But this excuse has been given for last 20 30 years. So go screw yourself.
Me ; the first chance I get , I will leave India and never return again. I dont want it.

Here everyone is tense about the results. Man, at least am saved from all that.

Whatever days are bore. People are too busy in there own things. Umm , I am thinking...lets go guwahati and never return to bongaigaon. Dude here life sucks....

goobye for now

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I have a confession to make. I am shit scared of cockroaches!

So much so that I couldn't bring myself to upload a snap of the infamous critter here! Specially when he is looking face up with antenna's moving around. Yeuuuchhh!!! The flying kind can send me fleeing and screaming like a banshee.

And guess what is even more infuriating? A close encounter earlier today, left me wondering what the exact term was for this fear? Yeah, you guessed right. It is Entomophobia . But this term includes the fear of all insects and bugs. It is just not fair I tell you. No bug is as horrific as the roach. Its fear deserves a separate name.

So I search some more and stumble across some sites. They gave the term Katsaridaphobia for the fear of roaches. I do not know whether this is a valid term. Not that I care. I am a content soul just because such a term exists.

That brings me back to my close encounter. Earlier today I entered my room only to see a big brown roach sitting on my copy of "The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy". I do not know whether he was trying to convey some subliminal message that he was actually an alien. Which would off course explain their tenacity and adaptability. For a moment I forgot my fears. I found myself wondering if this roach was a hitchhiking kind of an alien or a smarter than human and secretly ruling us kind of an alien. Should I grasp the bigger picture the book tries to convey(I am still reading it) and live and let live?

The roach probably found my lack of reaction encouraging and proceeded to spread his wings.



Need I say more? What followed was a scene from "The Matrix". Me bending down and picking up the can of "Hit" (yes, I keep it at the entrance to my room during the day and beside my bed stand at night), and the spray meeting the roach midair. He was heading straight for me!!! That done, I ran for dear life. The roach's not mine. After much pestering , a good samaritan went into the room and declared the enemy dead. I did not concede till I saw the remains. After all I had to spend the night in that room. The body has been taken care of and I am a heart attack survivor.



But at least I can sleep in peace! For now that is.

Survival of the fittest, eh?

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Why incoherent? Maybe I am becoming too much influenced by Optics which I am currently studying. Which means my this post has no constant phase difference. Silly me. looks like i dont know what to write or to be more accurate i cant arrange my thoughts. My thoughts processes are in a mess maybe. because of living in a mess . my room is hardly what you call an ideal students room. my mom says it is a living ground for all the bacteria's in the world. I staunchly deny this allegation. I AM very hygienic. I bathe with pears every day(or was it Jhonsons' baby soap :P) .
except my stubble makes me look like a shipwrecked sailor. whatever i like it that way. I find the stubble quite cool. Anyways going back to soaps. I remember by chemistry board practical held recently. I made a project on foaming capacity of soaps. But looks like i forgot the chemistry of detergents . Damn !! the only Question i didnt manage to answer in all my three practicals.

Yeah the board practicals have come and gone. Bio external was so pumped up when he called me for viva. i found it quite good. While physics was a little old . For the first time concave mirror experiment gave me results. Thank god!!

Pre- board results have been declared. Well continuing the maths jinx i freaked up in the hall. Recently bought R.S. aggarwal to clear up some topics. But personally M.L. Khanna is better. But some damn extra topics are there in syllabus for boards. Like the application of derivatives based on mensuration (hey u sickos!!) and then there's LBP- optimization problems.
Recently read some where that life is a optimization problem. You can never solve it You can only optimize it. what should we do?? draw graphs and see corners??

Mom very sad that her son has sunken so low , emotional atyachar. Well have to buckle up.

Read in reader's digest recently for tips to increase brain power (or was it Success Plan ??) (I am utterly cofnused why ask??) Any ways have a tip for a student. We all know that right brain coordinates left and vice versa. So start doing simple tasks like brushing teeth with your left hand . Wear watch on right hand(U will notice I am)will build up more neurons which will lead to more brain literally. And some extra neurons not really unwanted huh??And while making notes dont make linear notes. make notes of the type like for example like the way of a central point and other tributaries originating from it like in maps how air routes arise from single point. Techniques call Mind Mapping. Helpful.Tried And tested. And dont do continuos study. Take breaks each 30 mins helps by reciculating blood in brain. Introspect. Recollect.
Memory mostly short term . Recollecting helps in strengthening new neuron paths.

Daily routine quite monotonous . Like Rakesh sir says "Parhai sabse niras cheez hain". Not that i am studying a lot. But just bored with books. Show has to go on.

Weather has become better at least with the cold decreasing a lot. I hate winters. Read somewhere that cold decreases Metabolic rate. Makes lazy bozos thus.

Everyone seems busy in preparation. Kota - Rd no news ; Anu position?? Juggu is toh with good chance in medical. Here crash courses starting . Many contemplating. Me not taking. Need to devote time myself. Bito has disappeared .

Should I write more ?? I think am posting after long time. Heard about an inverse blogging law. If life interesting posting frequency decreases and vice versa. My nonchalant. Recently heard cuckoo sing. felt good. will write the story of cuckoo one day.

Looking back i see that grammar is not good today. Whatever really incoherent. The optics effect or is it sound ??? Huygens principle sucks. But Young's Double slit good. Wavefront.

Lets stop now. Will catch again later

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So yesterday i caught the roadies again.

And i must say it really was "HELL DOWN UNDER" , literally for the boys.

Hey guys, i think we should personally go and meet raghu why he is so interested in our "modesty"...last time he made the "strip sms"( though i remember an interesting incident in this case that happened in the T.T court, we called it "strip T.T"...JK do u remember how we thwarted RD in his attempt to ...i should not say more as it may hurt *ahem* someone's modesty. but yeah we made RD eat his own *ahem*..)

whatever the question is what has raghu got against our modesty? see this time he designed even the evil plan to contribute to impotency(in this days of burgeoning population its good idea...but this is evil)
whatever when i saw those guys yesterday doing the tasks i felt the pain myslef(ouch!!)....and i am sure the other guys agree.
and another question why are only the girls made to decide our fate. Its unfair , of them to laugh when we are in dire pain...i protest against such discrimination. But they should also know that getting "Hell Down Under" is nothing short of a bomb sharpnel passing through your ass. The moment of intense pain, blackness, numbness, and what not is a feeling which only a boy can describe.
Anyways...That Phalak is a street-fighter...i thought girls were the quiet type...but aha! this is a revealation.
Varisha should not have been "voted out" .It should have been Paulomi who in my opinion belongs to lab testing for how a human being can go horribly weird.
At last i would like to add the new gang vs gang concept is not so good...in roadies its individuality. this will foster more unity. and roadies is how u succeed when odds are against you.
But i must add this that Yesterday Roadies was exciting (and excruitatingly painful), waiting for the next adventure
heres me signing off...
goodnight

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5:30 am
Tee! Tee! Tee!
"Oh! Damn the stupid alarm's buzzing off. I wish God would help me out from this daily monotonicity." I say to myself.
Its cold even under the blanket. The morning rays are filtering through my window as I kick of my blanket with a groan rubbing off the reluctant sleep from my eyes. My rooms still dark.
I close my eyes and say to myself"Oh God why cant these exams get over quickly? Please give me strength. Make me believe again"

As i open my eyes i nearly fall off my bed in shock on seeing God himself smilling and standing before me. I think i m hallucinating , i rub my eyes again and shake my head.
But no he is still there.

I: who are you?
G: Your faith , Your god
I: what are you doing here?
G: trying to make you believe again
I: how come?
G: See my dear boy , early in the morning u are waking up cursing. So m here to know what is troubling you that u are questioning urself.
I: hahaha! what is my prob? well evrything has become a problem in life. I m struggling to balance the equation of life. M tired wid preparing for dese exams . I m tired of the rat race m running. M fighting wid the burden of oders expectations. M confused wheder its useful to wake up so early to chill my bones...I still dont kno whedr my heart has returned to me.
G: wow! dats quite a list. No wonder you look so de-energised. Though i myslef agree its quite chilling out here. Leave dis tell me hws ur new blog going?
I: well its still improving daily. N i m happy how it is shaping up. It has become a way of releasing dis tedious monotonicity. I m still trying to make more people intersted in it though.
G:well do u kno dat blog is solution to your prob. See like your what i call "blogging attitude" you need to free yourslef. stop thinking about all these probs. these are ur stepping stones. See you need to rebuilt your confidence again. Life has one funda 'evrything turns out to be good '.H ave faith in me , faith in urself, work soem 3 more months you will be at the end of the rat race. Leave the rest to me. U just do your job. stop thinking wht is going to happen...etc etc. dese are not under u. Only the present is under ur whip. Live life like ur mantra "free bird". And about your heart - it will remain where you want it to be. Goodbye..n best of luck.
I: hokay god...goodbye thanks for coming...

I suddenly feel somebody is shaking me violently. I suddenly jump n see dat I was dreaming n talking in my sleep. Mom is here...she says" u got to stop dis talking in sleep habit...get up refrsh urself...i m goin to make tea.."
As i brush my teeth i look into de mirror n say " Gods right"

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Well u know ppl yesterday nite something funny happened...
u see a small kid has come to visit one of our neighbours ...she studies i think in class 3 maybe...

so we had invited them over to our home for dinner....
dis small kid was very shy...well u know sometimes i can make small kids open up if i want...so i fondled her n den asked her tell me a story...

she told me dat story abt de Thirsty black crow...

but it was her own version...
n it went like dis...

It was a hot summer morning. A very thirsty crow was looking for some water to drink. She noticed that there was a beaker with a very low level of water. She tried to drink it but couldn't reach the bottom. She then looked nearby . She saw a straw. She took the straw n drank de water from the beaker with its help n flew away. :)

I couldnt help allowing myself a little smile on hearing this. She truly presented the story reflecting the modern times. wht do u think ??


(P.S.: We have a very interesting story on escape from school. It is the stuff of legends. We have exclusive video footage too. So keep posted to know this uber cool story.)

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well ppl evry is nwdays talkin abt Roadies Hell Down under...its de craze down here...evry saturday after our maths class evry1 rushes home real fast to catch de latest ...

hum bhi kya kam hain...aaz hum likhna chahte hain abt de only reality show dat i watch...all dat Indian Idol, sa re ga ma pa(sa le pa de ga)....all sucks...

just before i start..a brief history..
1 season: winner - Ranvijay(actually no clear cut winners..he was one of de two fianlists)

2 season: winner- Ayushman

3 season: winner- Parul (i dont kno girl or boy)

4 season: winner- Anthony

5 season: winner- Ashutosh

HOKAY lets leave dis all...

in my opinion last years roadies were really not up to de mark.. i felt bored at tyms..

but dis years roadies looks entrallin... by de traillers i saw yesterday...it looks like dere will some good fightin and tasks also look interestin....

whtever de finalists shortlisted are (to refresh your short memory)

	NAME - ANKUR Age: 20 Sex: Male City: Panchkula This Roadie wants to win it all but will his trait of playing it safe in EVERYTHING hamper his chances?
Strengths: Thinks things through Weaknesses: Afraid to take chances

mY oPInioN: well he looks like he will be blown away anyday... n de man whose hands will make him confused.. (remember how he used his hands in talkin)

NAME - TAMANNA Age: 19 Sex: Female City: Chandigarh This juggernaut wants to squash anything & everything that comes in her way to success! Strengths: A free bird, she will not get bogged down by negativity Weaknesses: Self-obsessed mY oPInioN : mY FAVORITE....girl..she has got de attitude...she has dis accent which is wht i call somewht hatke (mind m not sayin cool)

	NAME - NATASHA SINHA Age: 21 Sex: Female City: Panchakula All out to prove herself a good Roadie, this girl won't let anything get in her way!
Strengths: Extremely confident Weaknesses: Acts before she thinks!

mY oPinioN: she looks determinded ....she shud do tasks well..shud be interstin to watch...

AME - SONIA CHOUHAN Age: 18 Sex: Female City: Shimla Now this girl has a strong opinion on everything from - lying to get a job to one night stands! Wonder how the other Roadies will take this?
Strengths: Not afraid to speak her mind Weaknesses: Will not budge once her mind is made up!

mY Opinion: she is too frail..if she only plays mind games..n doesnt do task she shud be shot

	NAME - NAUMAN SAIT Age: 21 Sex: Male City: Bengaluru Now this is one guy who loves living life in the fast lane! Ever ready to face his fears, he practically lives for adventures!
Strengths: Confidence & determination to succeed at any cost Weaknesses: An inflated ego!

My Opinion: looks cool...n i have a feeling he will do de task wid enthu...i expect somethin frm him

NAME - GURMEET KAUR JOHAL Age: 19 Sex: Female City: Chandigarh A totally bindass babe, she has even thrashed a guy right in the middle of the road!
Strengths: Completely straightforward, no mind games played by her Weaknesses: Too trusting & willing to do anything for her friends

My opinioN: whhen she gave her interview she talked a lot (dis evn doesnt come close to describin it)
she is antique piece..phoonjabi kuddi...josh dikha..

	NAME - TIMUNG LONGKIRI Age: 25 Sex: Male City: Assam With his never-say-die attitude, Kiri is here to stay! With a rather active social conscience, lets see how he much good he can do for himself instead of others!
Strengths: Very focussed on the job at hand Weaknesses: Needs to increase his presence of mind

my opinion: well if i remember de first frm northeast ...i hope he does somethin ..n dey dont vote him out too fast....he is a self confessed stupid...n i think dat is gutsy...hehe

Age: 19 Sex: Female City: Kolkata Truly one of a kind, this girl isn't afraid to speak her mind! But will this trait rub the other Roadies the wrong way?
Strengths: Extremely confident, nothing scares her.

My opinion: looks like anoder shambhavi....dont bore us like her please...

	NAME - PAULAMI DE Age: 28 Sex: Female City: Kolkata Definitely one of the most 'interesting' people on Roadies, there is nothing she would like to change about herself.
Strengths: Very straightforward & broad-minded Weaknesses: Over-the-top behaviour

my opinion: she is weirdo...who makes me laugh wid her actions...but she just isnt roadie material...

NAME - BHANU PRATAP SINGH RANA Age: 18 Sex: Male City: Ahmedabad Here’s an emotional Rajput if there ever was one! But also being the practical Roadie that he is, he chooses success over friendship. Because as he says – When one is successful, people automatically come closer.
Strengths: He is willing to do ANYTHING on Roadies. Weaknesses: He expects too much from other people, which as we all know can really backfire on a Roadie!

my opinion: well srk says he is too hairy!! :)... dont kno if dat will prevent him frm doin good tasks...

	NAME - ROOP BHINDER Age: 22 Sex: Female City: Patiala The finalist in Roadies Battleground, she has already done her share of crazy tasks like putting cow dung on her face & getting people to kiss her to prove herself a Roadie. But will that be enough?
Strengths: Having participated in Roadies Battleground, she understands the pressure

my opinion: she looks like a bahu out of a sas bahu serial... whtever rope she may use to hang..de oders...m not too much into her

NAME - PRADEEP SINGH Age: 20 Sex: Male City: Panchkula A seasoned gambler, his strategy is to perform well in the tasks so no one can vote him out.
Strengths: Passionate & aggressive nature Weaknesses: Trusts people very easily

my opinion: de macho man...he looks set do tasks well ..banda bore nehi lagta...

	NAME - NEHA KAPOOR Age: 20 Sex: NEHA KAPOOR City: Mumbai This girl does not care what the world thinks but is hell bent on following her own way & making her own rules.
Strengths: A positive attitude no matter how tough the situation Weaknesses: Can underestimate her opponents

My opinion: i DROOL over her....hot airhostes....man...whtever looks interesting too..not dat bitchy boring anmol type...

Age: 19 Sex: Male City: New Delhi Though generally a well-mannered young fellow, Sandeep can really pack in quite a punch if the need arises!
Strengths: Is not afraid to take the road less traveled Weaknesses: Extremely short tempered & emotional

my opinion: well raghu says his smile is like dat of a girl...dont act weaky kneed dats all...

	NAME - Bobby Chopra Age: 20 Sex: Female City: New Delhi Born with a craze to become a Roadie, she is out to 'terrorize' all the other Roadies.
Strengths: Completely grounded personality Weaknesses: Unable to judge a person's character easily my opinion: in my opinion fat...i m not into her...she looks like de one who will only play mind games..

NAME - DEVARSHI PATEL Age: 21 Sex: Male City: Ahmedabad As cool as a cucumber, nothing can shake his confidence. A complete social animal, one of the reasons he wants to be on Roadies is to ‘spend quality time with quality people’
Strengths: His PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) Weaknesses: His emotional nature can get him into trouble.

mY opinioN: HE made me laugh wid his rock on lyrics...i will wacth roadies to watch his antics..

	NAME - SAMRAT KAUSHAL Age: 23 Sex: Male City: Mumbai He may be all brawn but that don't mean he's got no brains! Determined and passionate, he does not give up easily.
Strengths: He keeps a cool head in tough situations. Weaknesses: Extremely sensitive, he doesn’t mix easily with others. But don’t we all know, groupism is everything on Roadies.

My opinioN: OIkwoikuauxo!!! soemthin of dis rajeev said...simply put rocks...

NAME - VICKY ARORA Age: 18 Sex: Male City: Mumbai This guy welcomes challenges with open arms, even the downright stupid ones. And girls beware! In matters of the heart, he doesn’t forgive & forget!
Strengths: He ain’t scared of anything! Weaknesses: Rushes headlong into things without thinking about the consequences.

my opinion: well he looks to innocent frankly...be a good performer yaar!!!

(photos are courtsey mtv )

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